Where r u??

Today has been a boring day.. I've done pratically nothing besides hearing Abba cuz daddy has been blasting it out loud since he went for a disc hunt & found his Abba cd after watchin Mama Mia. Other than tat.. Only 1 thing that has been in my mind.. I have not heard fr scott d whole day & still cant get him.. :( Worries me.. Don't think so he knows that it does.. Feeling rather sleepy now but i dunno how 2 sleep.. Therefore d only thing 2 do at this first hour of the day is to blog. Well.. I've got nothing much in my mind except just "Where is Scott?".. I mean its 12.14 in d morning & i've not heard fr him since 10am when i called 2 wake him up from his sleep.. Haiz.. How can a gf not be worried for not hearing from her bf for so long? Can't think of anythin else that he can be doing that requires him 2 keep his phone somewhere out of sight cuz even working its in his pocket. If ciggies can go in the pockets then there's no excuse that a phone cant.. So where can he b??!!! Sigh.. =( Hate it when this happens cuz my paranoid self would take over me..... Worried...

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!

Gosh i'm pist off.. Ok.. I seem to get pretty pist off and sensitive bout certain things in particular lately.. But its only cuz i'm sick and tired of it already. I don't get it.. Sometimes i really wish for stuff to be different so that it is way easier for me to be happy and to achieve my dreams and to live life to the fullest. U noe.. I always somehow believe that i should treat people with respect and allow them to act freely as long as its appropriate and legal. Wat goes around comes around rite... But i guess not for me when it comes to this.
Each individual has their own freedom. Each individual is given the freedom to think,act and say what they want to. Just as long as they're responsible for their actions. So why can't others respect the freedom that the people around them have? It doesn't matter if they're young or old. It does not matter if u're a man or a woman,a girl or a boy or in between. Who cares? Everybody is free. Everybody wants to make a free decision and to act freely. A kid would want to pick the candy that he or she loves most and not be forced to eat celery sticks. A teenager would love to mingle with his or her friends,to socialise and not to be grounded at home. An adult would love to pick a spouse of their choice. And a retiree would love to spend his or her money and time according to their choice. Each of these choices are signs of achieving dreams. So why can't we? WHY CAN'T I?? Why don't those that do not respect this think about it? I mean seriously man.. Have they never hear about putting yourself in the other person's shoes?? But i have to say that the worst of all is when your choices are made by your parents. That sucks!
But one thing I know is that everyone is free to act. What you do,what you say, its your pick and no one else. Just because some one has a quiet personality does not mean that everyone around that person has to be as quiet and anti-social as well. Everyone has different personalities so why can't people not be so selfish and accept that? Why can't people allow others to achieve what they want to achieve. How can one be succesful when all one is allowed to do is to stay at home and eat. NO ONE can live alone in this world.
Each generation grows and becomes different. It grows smarter and smarter by the years. Just because in the year 1979 TV use to be a luxury, it does not mean that TV is still a luxury now. Things change.. So why can't the minds of people change to? Why is it that they're still stuck under a rock?

Our story

Our story.. From our 1st pic together (pretty obvious wif extra innocent faces...hehe) till now.. Rather drastic changes through out the years.. haha.. Besides from me going BIG to BIGGER than smaller than to a lil bigger again and it goes on and on.. haha.. And from Scott going buffer and buffer.. Oh well.. The changes.. But its alright.. :)
Muaxxx!

Dare to act,dare to face it

Well.. Saturday especially at nite & d wee hrs of sunday morning was something that i would not want to go through in any phase of my life ever again. It was the results of an action that was done but could not be faced. However,It was something that made me change and realise a few things about myself. Things that I was blind to see and maybe didn't bother seeing. But i'm glad that incident became an eye opener to certain things in my life. A few things but the few most important things. Thankfully, it is never too late to make a change. It made me realise and emphasized even more on treasuring everything i have as anything can take away wat is most precious to me. It is not to say that i didnt know that.. Its just that sometimes, we take things for granted. It made me understand things that i could never understand and even changed my point of view of certain things. Plus, it made me see things that i never knew.

It is when you loose something valuable to yourself,something that means a lot to you and something that shows a lot of who you are, it is then that you would start realising what that one thing actually means to you. To me, those that are most valuable are the ones that I love. The ones that gave me a hand in climbin the steps of life and the ones that made a change in my life. But this time,I'm talking about just one particular person that changed me a lot. That one person that through out the years has been my back bone, my inspiration, my cheerleader, my comforter, my best friend and my one and only. (And of course definately fit enough 2 be my bodyguard. *shhh...* =P) My one and only that went through hell because of me and yet, I am treated with love straight from the heart at the end of the each day. What more could anybody ask for? NOTHING! Nobody is perfect but its so amazing how a person can be at times. At times i can't even get it how someone can act so selfishly. And at times I really don't understand how someone can be so close to the word PERFECT. Close but not close enough because everbody has their own flaws. Well.. My laptop battery is dying.. I was not able to learn anything at first because of ego but in the end, I chose to face the fact, to step up to what I did and I realised that it is the most valuable lesson that I could ever learn. And if i chose to be proud and put my nose up high and to be a coward inside, I would have been the biggest looser because I never would have realise the most important lesson out of my actions and I would have lost something nobody in this world wishes to loose. In short, LESSON LEARNT! *Chop Sah* And I love my piggy baby more than anything money can buy cuz this is something we all know that money can't buy. (Even though Ms.Christine claims that girls are very materialistic... Mayb just a lil *;)* )

XOXO

Its only in d morning..

You had a bad day,

You're taking a walk down,

You sing a sad song and you turn it around,

You say you don't know,

You tell me don't lie,

You work at a smile and you go for a ride.

So early in the morning and they're playing this song already.. Wat a turn off.. Makes me even sadder.. Something has been bugging me throughout the week.

EGO is similar to a 4 letter word to me. Not sex but more of a foul language. In short,EGO is self centeredness. It makes ppl insult each other,generates hurt,hate and WAR. War in a relationship,war in families,friends,neighbourhoods and the list goes on. And this is wat really pisses me off.. Wat happened to learning about humanity and moral values and applying it in our daily lives? Everyone KNOWS wat is right and wrong. All of us were taught by our parents on what is sinful and what brings us a step closer to heaven. Everyone talks about morality. Everyone emphasizes on the importance of morality being practiced but do they only look at the actions of others or do they look at themselves too? Well.. Maybe they're just too busy lookin at the actions of others that they don't even have time to evaluate their actions! Everyone is not perfect but what do u get by hurting others just to please the egoistic side of us? Hurting others just so that one's pride and ego would be maintain? That's pure stupidity! Even the blind can see such self centered actions. Breaking families up, breaking friendships that lasted throughout the years because of just 1 stupid poisonous attitude which can be found in everybody. Even Adam & Eve! E-G-O. However, everyone has to the freedom of choice so its just up to everybody to decide and evaluate which action shows maturity and humanity.

Come to think about it.. Wats the point at the end of the day? It does not gurantee anybody a lifetime of happiness. In fact it is equivalent to loaning money from a loan shark. The joy of having cash in yr pockets but the responsibility and the guilt drilling you constantly at the back of yr head that might eventually lead to just the Rope & You. Its just pleasures that can be kept only on earth and probably buying yourself a key to the gates of hell. So why do it in the first place? WHY?

Any other day...

I can't study media law! It just doesnt seem 2 get stuck in my head. Thankfully its 50 objective questions and not 10 essays or something but i still need to have d knowledge. Which is wat i'm worried about most.. Cuz dont! Scared.... Why are there laws again?? They are effective but only to a certain extend. Anything is possible..

Well other than that,today was pretty alright.. I'm glad that i had 1 of the things on my favourite list of food which was sweedish meatballs. And NERDS ROPE was on sale in Party House! Of course i had to get it cuz that is 1 candy that can make me extremely happy. Or at least i'll be happy until it all ends up in my tummy la. Which it already has.. =( Wanna get more nerds!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

No mood..

The title says everything.. Oh well.. Feeling rather gloomy 2day... N a lil lost.. Was watching Australia's next top model for d past 2 n a half hrs.. Got kinda bored of it n thought i could sleep but dun feel like sleeping either now.. Haiz.. =(

Pretty frustrated (cont.)

Saturday

My dad decided to go down malacca for my granaunt's bday so my 2 younger sisters and I followed down because it would be rude to not visit yr relatives if you have nothin on. I noe,its stupid but thats family. Thankfully my dad was in a good mood so my youngest sis & I had mcd for breakfast and we were munchin on chocs the whole journey. It was pretty fun and for the first time,no1 slept in the car! hehe.. We reached malacca,got to my uncles hse in Ujong Pasir to fetch my grandaunt and all of us headed to the chicken rice ball shop in town as the start of our usual eatin marathon in Malacca. Malacca rules cuz they have the best food that cannot be found anywhere else in the whole wide world! Hehe.. After lots of yummy chicken rice balls,Krystal,Michelle and I took a walk along Jonker's street. While the rest went somewhere else searchin for some uninteresting stuff. However,this is where i went broke.. :( Got 2 t shirts,1 for me and the other for scott. Then i did somethin really silly. I bought 10 bottles of some kind of fruit juice. I couldnt help it! The bottles were so so pretty so i bought all of them. From the iced tea range to some other fruit juice range and some mix mix juice.. hehe.. Seriously the colours were all so nice and pretty.. It was a torture though to carry all these bottles back to the car. hehe.. Didnt think about carryin it.. haha. We dropped by the orang utan shop too b4 headin back to the car (Krys's shop). We each had a tshirt fr there. I like mine but after tryin it on,i kinda hate the cuttin..
After Jonker's and all,we decided to go for satay babi. (Pork Satay) More yummy food! They were so so so so gooodddddd! With the pineapple peanut sauce. Gosh.. It was awesome! Something really funny happened while parkin the car though.. This guy that i think just walked out of some saloon nearby,decided to check his hair out using the car window without knowin that we were sitting in d car. So when he came to my window, (I was sittin at the front passenger seat), i put my face directly at the window and gave him a very weird 'wats-wrong-with-you' face expression. U noe then one where 1 of yr eyebrows go up. It took him a few secs to realise and when he did realise it cuz his friend saw us in d car,he jumped and walked off really fast without turning back. haha.. I noe.. I'm evil. But thanks to him,there was something to laugh about at the satay shop and until now in fact. hehe.. Well,after satay,we walked a few doors away 2 get some miles crepe. Its cake and its seriously yummy! its way yummier than the ones ere in KL. I dunno why but the quality of the choc and cream is way betta and so are the strawberries. We bought the all time favourite chocolate & strawberry crepe. N my itchy mouth made my daddy buy a choco mint moose cake too.. hehe.. It was awesome!
After all that,we headed back to Ujong Pasir to rest as we definately over ate and we couldnt eat anymore. We rested for awhile and left at about 6. But of course when i say we left, it means that we're headin back to KL but of course stoppin to bring back food along the way as usual. So we dropped by the 1st coffeeshop for some really good and crispy yar char kuey and to take home some yummy juicy oysters fried with egg which we ended up finishin a packet in the car.. hehe. Then we headed to the next coffeeshop and brought home chee cheong fun,honey roasted chicken wings,more fried oysters with egg and wan tan mee. I noe.. My family is mad. We eat a lot seriously.. haha.. After buyin packets and packets of all those food, we headed to another shop to buy pau. Lots of them.. Then we headed to tengkera as our last stop for putu piring (rice four steam with lots of gula melaka in the middle) and char tau kuey. I dunno how 2 spell so i'm spelling it based on my own pronounciation.. hehe.. After literally fillin every empty space of the car with food,we headed home at last with me sleepin right through the journey. Oh yes.. Plus my grandaunt decided 2 follow us down 2 KL. I'm mean but *boo hoo hoo*!! Tats cuz i've 2 sacrifice my bed for a week!! Tat is torture seriously. Sigh.. Now i'm all unhappy cuz my nice bed is given up and i've 2 sleep on some bed that feels like a plank. I know.. Its unfair! :( Anyway.. I reacched home and slept b4 12 again cuz i was really really tired.. XOXO

Pretty Frustrated

Friday evening.

When i was in the car stuck in a very very bad 2hr + jam with my sister on friday,she said, "Eeyin,i think u're ready to be a mother" and my immediate reply was "NO! I'm not having any kids!". I think it kinda shocked her cuz my tone was serious.. hehe.. N at the same time she was thinkin,B-I-M-B-O. I can imagine cuz she would have guessed that d reason would be cuz i dun wanna grow fatter & fatter. And to end the awkward silence after my answer,lil miss smart me had to add that i would only have kids if they still had nice cute shoes at that time. Which i think would have added to her bimbo assumption. And F.Y.I, she said it cuz i was tellin her about my whole day of driving up & down and after college responsibities on a friday which is to send my 3rd sis & her friend to tuition in USJ 2 then to fetch my eldest sis from work in PJ then to get my 3rd sister fr tution at 7.20 and to send my youngest sis to tuition at 8 in USJ 2 again and to fetch her at 10.15.. And that is practically the reason why i dont wanna have kids. I mean seriously.. This whole thing is killin my soul. And plus if i were to have my own time with my friends or with scott in between coll and the tuition hrs of the 2 pest,it would mean non stop sms-es or phone calls fr my beloved queen bear.
Gettin back to the friday,i reached home fr 1u,dropped my bag and books in d hse,fetched my sis & her friend,sent them, headed to fetched my eldest sis & reached at about 5.45 at Jaya 1 and we reached Subang at 8. The jam was horrible! Plus is was rainin.. We had no choice but to reach home as soon as we could because my mom was callin us every 10 mins as she didnt want my 3rd sister to be waiting very long but we couldnt help it either. I mean nobody would want to be on the road fr 5-8 during the whole of this month cuz every1 is rushin. Sadly we didnt have the choice.. Even though we wanted to divert to Food Foundry to sit and wait for the jam to subcide as my ankle was hurtin and my eldest sis's was startin to hurt after takin over the wheel from me we obviously didnt want to take the risk of gettin deaf through the phone. The fact that we were sittin somewhere out of the car would have killed my mom. Therefore we sat through the jam, munchin (we dropped by Wendy's for Frosty & Mcd's for fries n nuggets) and surprisingly reached Usj2 at 8 to fetch my 3rd sis. Thank God my mom arranged for my youngest sister's friend to fetch her fr tuition. We reached home all tired with achin ankles. Had a nice hot bath,watch tv and i went to bed at 9 somethin cuz i could barely open my eyes. I fell asleep really fast and was deep in2 sleep cuz i didnt even wake up to Scott's after-work sms. The bed felt really really good.. BUT.. *boo hoo* My mom woke me up at 10 to fetch my sis from tuition. Feelin EXTREMELY frustrated and tired,i dragged my feet out fr bed and to the car without a choice. Driving with my eyes half closed and 3/4 of body was still asleep,i fetched my sis and we reached home safely thank God.
These responsibities that has been passed 2 me without any questions nor acknowledgement has frustrated me and even Scott till the bone. Imagine,tat is only 1 day out of 5.. Sigh.. I'm not usually like this but i seriously am frustrated because i would definately prefer to be more relaxed when i need to and not to be drained off my energy cuz of tuition and the work that people do not even appreciate at the end of the day. Therefore,i'm not gonna be thinkin of kids. Nah-ah..

* Mayb just not for now* hehe..

Somewhere over the rainbow

Its so gloomy today. Its been raining so much! Makes me wanna listen 2 Aselin Debison's 'Somewhere over the rainbow' d whole day. Its nice & cold but i cant go 2 d bazaar down d road either. But i'm glad i had some really good chicken rice at damansara perdana just now. It was AWESOME! Actually i dunno y am i still thinkin of food when i'm so stuffed. hehe..

College was pretty cool 2day. PR was actually really good 2tell d truth. This is d 1st time i'm gonna admit tat class was really fun & we've got a really good lecturer at last. Hope i dun have 2 take back my words.. Ms. Christine is seriously hilarious. If only all lecturers could follow her footsteps i think people would most probably think more highly of KDU's standard & its lecturers. E-media on d other hand is pretty alright also i guess. Mr.'Cool dude' made us act out some mystery murder scene. Our group cracked our heads for some really confusin story while d rest just had a simple 1. Damn.. If only we knew.. hehe.. But its ok.. I'm glad ours was nice & rather different cuz we had a whole lot of people 'dyin' instead of just 1. hehe.. N it was cool cuz Shakey was a good ' sick father/grandfather' & all of us dropped down one after another. I couldnt c the rest though.. Sowwee.. U noe.. I think all of us would agree to this.. Its really fun when yr whole group works together & laugh together & come out wif a really cool result or even close to a cool one. But on d other hand, it really sucks when group members take things for granted which makes me really annoyed & at the same time u dun have d heart to be mean. Sometimes i think to myself and i still dun get it. All of us are capable of it but i dun get it how people can close their eyes & pretend when d people around you are in need of help. Guess its the same like buyin lunch or tea fr starbucks almost everyday which cost bout RM30 +- when you can make yr whole ice blended coffee or chocolate drink and sandwiches at home & instead give the money you save to someone tat needs it more than you or use that money to buy somethin betta that would help someone or something. Ok.. I'm definately diverting into another topic d. But anyway,I gonna try n make some dim sum! Hopefully it works out then i can make some for every1 else. Talkin bout food.. There's pesto in d fridge. Anybody for pesto?

Sigh.. I'm bored la. dunno wat 2 do. Wanna go gym also cannot cuz d car is not at home. Sigh.. Sigh.. Sigh.. Its makin me depressed cuz i dunno wat 2 do d.. N Jason Mraz's Stranger in d sky is makin me feel more emo for some apparent reason. D tune is just so gloomy ooommee. Haha.. Ok.. Changin song. Sigh.. Ok.. Wats next?? Wat 2 do?? Wat 2 do??? WAT TO DOOO??? *boo hoo*!!